Eating more again

1 pm -Newlands East for lunch with aunties and uncles from Moms side

8pm-Supper with Dads family at Jaipur Palace,food was terrible.SUXXXX

Xmas eve

Xmas eve was spent in wentworth,there was no one there as my granparents were renovationg and painting,so me nika n zai were putting up the tree and decorations.

Later my other cousins arrived from jhb,we went next door to sit with teneal and them, imean after ages i was in their house maybe a year since my cousin had a fight with them ,neways we found ourselves sitting in their house eating their food and what not.

There were two pregnant coulered girls amongst the group,both drinking and smoking and getting down and dancing.EISHHHH!!

Most of the talk was about getting a child and being able to support it,i laughed alot,after a long time i sat with the peopless and listend to their chunes.

Midnite came and so did MR F ,so we took a drive with him around town and about.

XMAS Day

Woke up went to Umbilo to bath n change and back to Wentworth for Xmas lunch with my moms family.

Night came ,Me Leonie n Zai went to News Cafe for supper and then home to sleep.

Away

I want it to stop,i want it to go away....

leave me ive endured enough already,im not strong enough.

I thought i was but im not.

Where do i unsign all the wrong things in my life.

THis year has taken all out of me,but i took it cos it was meant for me,but i dont want it anymore,i want it to go away.

I want to forget.

Why cant i get half of what i want,Just the happiness part.

It's not alot ,and it dont cost much.

Im tired im done with crying,im done with people trying to fuck me over.

Why people just dont leave me alone,this weekend i had messages from soem bitch trying to fuk up my relationship, i guess shes doing a good job.

Make or break

Life isnt so good right now,last couple of months have been a bit stressful and alot of things have happend,but in the end i came out okay.

I had one of the worst weeks of my life and one on top of each other and two problems of diffrent sorts including me breaking up with my bf and vise versa.

But today i appreciate life and the people that i love and the opportunities i have,and realise life shouldnt be wasted on highs that dont last long and people that dont appreciate you.

My cousin died last night in a car accident and my lil 3 year old cousin is sick,things like that are big and serious and cant be helped or avoided.

Me n jamez in da bus on da way to nottingham rd

Me galz