Almost done with being drugged up

So today decided to cash in on my  script from the doctor of Tramacet.

Ahh 3 months post op.Have been off the pain meds for while back at work and just working through the pain.

So I'm like immune to this pain killer.Totally amazing when you laying in hospital with a broken femur for two weeks . It really helped me get through the toughest pains at first before and after . Though after it made me really nauseous and stop eating for 3 weeks . not a pain killer for the weak.

So if you wana sleep for 3 days take one of that crazy ass drug if not don't even try that shit it's on a whole new level.

TKR physio time

So been doing my thing at Westville hospital twice a week . Physio is kewl never knew I could Do all the things I try there especially on the trampoline and sqauts. wow why would I do squats with the behind I have...anyhoo it's fun and I got no choice cause my physio is like a exercise policeman.

Get on that and do this and so many reps!!!

It's like a mini gym at the hospital.
So I see this Zulu lady every time I go she's sitting there outside the lift so I assume she's a nurse that always coming off her shift.

So I asked her and apparently she's there for dialysis three times a week . so I think I'm not so bad I still have my health and my functioning organs . Shukr alhamdullilah.

Spontaneous. ..maybe some other day

You hear let's do this and we'll I'm ever ready to take on the world and a second later you realise, well you can't . Maybe next time when you are able and you are better .

Being better is taking forever in my world.

So many months later

Sooo in October I had a little accident while in the shower and broke my femur . everything after that is kinda a blur I stayed 1 week in Westville hospital with my broken bones . While there I was told I had a tumour that weakened my bones and so I fell.

My next adventure took me onto Cape Town which lasted just over a month . I had to see a tumour and replacement specialist and there I had my surgery done. A new knee and femur and so it's 5 weeks after my surgery and I'm going for physio and trying to walk.

Life has been hard not being able to do things for your self and depending on  your family for help . I'm so blessed with so many people that helped me along the way and constantly pray for me.

So this year or the next few months will be trying to get back into normal things while hopping along.

Day 1 - 'You' .... but me we're the same person i think

So here's a silly selfie, I'm  really bad at taking pictures of myself :p #noedits

Photo a day

So my blog is empty and lonely and neglected so I decided to fill it up with irrelevant  and random pictures following a photo a day post thingy

 :D

Anxiety i call it maybe

I don't know what it is, I feel so lost like I don't know what to do next with my life!

Like I don't know where I suppose to be or what I suppose to have. I really cant  compare myself to anyone, everyone is different and at different stages in their life with their own dreams that they are in pursuit of.

I'm having little panic attacks or waves of anxiety. I normally just block things out and carry on with my busy life doing things but lately I feel like I want to just stay at home and be by myself *sigh*.


Maybe its change of environment or getting older or I just don't really fkn know, maybe I just need a kick in the right direction.