Mixed Emotions

Gosh my head is spinning my mind is full of diffrent tHoughtS,I'm excited to be goin to jhb to see my frends and lil niece Ziya and to go be goin to tiestO on the other hand my heart is sore after my secoind aunty passed away from cancer this morning. I got the flu work is insane we have a conference friday I'm thinking what to wear what to do dozing myelf with meds to get better so I can be fine for the weekend. Its my 3 year anniversary n wondering wht ppl r trying to ruin my relationship n trying to get n the way.its too much too handle all too overwheming for me