The married life routine has started

So we one month on our own now, not much has changed still living in one part of the flat "'roll eyes'' i just cant find the time.Life is so busy i dont know how our mothers ever managed coming home cleaning, cooking, washing clothes ironing the list goes on... lets not forget kids in that eqaution.im just trying to get my head around this new routine, soemtimes its fun but you come home so late, hubby comes home later by that time u exhaughsted, heres to the rest of our lives in routine.

Weekends are already booked out trying to get some sleep shopping for things to fill the house with, or spent in Durban by my parents 'how i miss civilization' did i mention i officially live in a village now.I went from Durban CBD to the Suburbs to the Farm to the Village(officially its called that).

Lets not forget work!im headed for a breakdown stressed out i cnt even think straight most days, i wake up generally with a smile and mentally prepare myself for a good day but soon as i reach campus its downhill, teh university is in a mess Reconfiguration they calling it, we dont know where we will be next year, we dont know anything for now(shrug)

Finish the sentence....

Finish the sentence survey - your turn!

Paste the sentences into a note of your own, change the ... to your answers, then tag awesome people to use it as filler posts
Finish The Sentence Survey

1. My ex... is just that
2. Maybe I should... go to the mall after work
3. I love... my bf to bits
4. People would say that I'm... loud at times
5. I don't understand... why bad things have to happen
6. When I wake up in the morning... I think about what the hell im going to wear
7. I lost... my bluetooth device and my usb at once
8. Life is full of... choices we make
9. My past is... something to talk about
10. I get annoyed when... people are late
11. Parties are... too short cos the times goes too fast
12. I wish... that mine and your dreams come true
13. Dogs... make me itchy
14. Cats... as well
15. Tomorrow... is the day i get ready to go on my trip
16. I have... alot
17. If I had a million dollars… id share it with the people i love
18. I'm totally... bored and wanna go home

i tag whoeva reads this post

SMiley Week!

Ja ja i know i only write here when i im sad n angry n got issues,but u see i dont have many post so i really dont have that much issues.

Nehows i can honestly say this week has been good,its true 'What doesnt kill you makes u stronger '

I feel stronger i can think clearer but im still undecided about where im heading in life and what im doing.I know im old already i should know these things but i dont.I have a new friend, a really sweet guy junaid,way younger than me but we get on really well and he's funny n entertaining n i enjoy being hes friend.My parents are gone to jhb for the weekend so its home alone tis weekend.Parrrty up!

Me n Angy watched 'My best friends girl' last night,Freaken hilarious seriously its da shit i really enjoyed it.

Circle of ungratefullness

Is it the norm to take for granted the person that loves you and is a permanant stable fixture in your life.Im talking friends as well as relationships.

When you know for eg. your wife or gfriend is there, u can stop paying attention to her and stop attending to her every whim,but you rather pay atttention to a person and spend all your energy on the other person who doesnt really give a shit whether you exist or not.

I think in the begining of relationships its like that where everything is given both ways equally, and then its just down hill from there.

But nevau mind there is always someone that is giving you the effort and attention that you are lacking,its like a circle i supose.

Marriage always seems that way unless you are blessed with a good person as the other half and married you for the right reasons.

Wear and tear

Im not well physically n mentally, i just feel xhausted like i cant go on.TOday was worse i had flippen cramps and there was no drugs,shit i slept most of teh morning at work until the pain subsided.

What is ths world without drugs ??
Sad and unhappy and full of tears.

On the other side of that comment.

Last night i heard a sermon should i say from a priest that came to pray for my granny and aunt.
He spoke about wear and tear of our body and our spirit ,and how we should fill this void up with God's Love and give all our pains and problems to God ,so true.

We need God more than we need anything in this materialist world.

I need a break from everyone,especially myself.

Catching up

Lets see it's been almost a month sonce my last post ,not like it had any details of my Fab life in it.

Work has been hectic taking its toll on me,thanks God the honours thesis are almost in and i dont have to see last years students anymore.This years students are a better much friendlier bunch though.

social calendar on teh whole has been quiet busy,made a few new friends i guess the year changed and so did my friends.

Change is good it exposes you to diffrent people with well different attitudes and perspectives on life.I was going thru a really hard time and then i met some friends who really where there for me and made me forget about all the inconsiderate self centred ppl that i know.

Lets see iv'e been to the beach in Ballito for a picnic one saturday afternoon with one of my buddies,it was an awesum sight totally beautiful,i need to go back there its alike a piece of heaven on earth.

Ive been to the opening of the new club traxx,not that grand wouldn't want to go back there again. Raffles was way better, had a party there met some guys and new hardcore rave freaks but no thanks im over that shit now.Went to Sibaya for that prawn festival,i ate prawns till it came out my ears.Ohh lets not forget tilt ive been there after a year since i fell i didnt look back,i met up with my old Tilt "buddies"hehe lets not go there,Tilt was nice Cups n Noushy came wit as well as the whole crew and not forgettin my cusn Sarah.

Guys well, i met a few that were really sweet and nice and lets say diffrent from the usual but too clingy,alls well with guys in the begining i mean they treat you like a queen and then when they get comfortable they take the fact that you will always be there for granted. and well im not ready to start anything with anyone i just want to be by myself.I dont think i can handle anymore emotional shit.

Well living arrangements have changed staying by my aunt,its really peacefull and diffrent to be independant,get up do what you want and well no curfew not like i want to go anywhere, i like the peace.

IOD - Part 2

Okay so, My week hasnt gotten any better,Thats my last injury up to date.
Im sick with the flu the whole week,Tuesday night as i was taking the cottage pie out the microwave the gravy spilt all over my wrist and burnt me.

Poor Me,was so painful,but its getting better now.

The fast is almost over now,1 week to go and its Eid.
A bumpy road is ahead for me,but ill take each day as it comes.
Nobody is sure of tomorrow or whether the choice they make today will be the right one,im one of those people.

If tommorow comes

Happiness

Aint it funny how sometimes you sacrifice your own hapiness for others yet ,the same people make such an effort to make u unhappy.


Theres only one thing i always wanted and thats to be happy,i never have a want for material things or what other people have,Is being happy such a awful thing to want.






















HAPPINESS ALWAYS LOOKS SMALL



WHEN WE HOLD IT IN OUR HANDS.



BUT WHEN WE LEARN TO SHARE IT,



WE REALIZE HOW BIG AND PRECIOUS IT IS! ............

Some like it "Hot" and well "Not"

Last night episode of Top Model was such a dissapointment ,it should be called America's Next top Skank.How could Yoanna win,nebody but her.All the freaken hype for nothing,wasted i tell you,Me and my big mouth will win the next season,just watch this space 'SPACE' .
I will wait in much anticipation for the next season.


Ugly betty is a breathe of fresh on the other hand,i screamed and laughed, food for my soul i tell you,My new role model ,im getting braces n those hot red glasses to add some spunk to the new ME look.


Okat that really calls for me to be heading in Virgin active's direction,lets see my imagination can have me waking up everyday at 5 am rolling in gym and then onto work like all the normal people.
You know which normal people im refering to,you know those ones when u driving home 6 am from a party or the club and they on their bicycles and those running with their white shorts on a sunday morning and you look at them and wonder what the hell possesed them to get up and run on a sunday morning instead laying in bed next to their 100 yr old wife or husband.

James brought me a book to read, i havent read in ages,shame on me ya ya blah blah.
I watched 'Transformers' the movie btw and it kicked ass,as Jonathan would say "briliant".
Im heading off this weekend to catch it on the big screen again.

Im never one to question what's to come or the future i always let things slip by and take each day as it comes,il never worry about an hour or a year from now,but what i have in front of me right now.

Last night my brother gave me n zai an asumption of our current relationships and well kinda put doubts in our minds about lots of things.Well after our talks, i had too much of doubts and questions,luckily for us our psychologist cousin paid us a visit and put our minds at ease.I think in future i will trust my own judgement.This morning i asked questions that still bugged me a bit and my answer went as follows:

"we dont know wat the future holds but we can create a future by living the present"

Neways i trust that everything will be what it's supose to be,i guess it's normal to be doubtful and insecure nothing is promised not even tomorrow.

Typically ME

8 words women use...
>
> 1.) "Fine" : This is the word women use to end an argument when they
>are
> right and you need to shut up.
>
> 2.) "Five Minutes" : If she is getting dressed, this means a half an
>hour.
> Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more
>minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.
>
> 3.) "Nothing" : This is the calm before the storm.
>
>This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin
>with nothing usually end in fine.
>
> 4.) "Go Ahead" : This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!
>
> 5.) "Loud Sigh" : This is actually a word,
>
>but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men.
>
>A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is
>wasting her time standing here and arguing with
> you about nothing. (Refer back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)
>
> 6.) "That's Okay" : This is one of the ! most dangerous statements
>a
>women can make to a man.
>
>That's okay means she wants to think long and hard
> before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.
>
> 7.) "Thanks" : A woman is thanking you, do not question, or Faint.
>
>Just say you're welcome.
>
> 8.) "Don't worry about it, I got it" : Another dangerous
>statement,
> meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several
>times,
>
>
>but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking
> "What's wrong?" For the woman's response refer to #3.
>
All these are typically me ,but ,mostly when im in a pissed state,and it usually tells on my face especially the "Nothing"

Undefined

Somehow my plans for the last 3 days didnt work out as scheduled,the flu hit me from no where and practically disabled me.I hate this type of flu ,the one that makes u weak and makes u feel nauseus,like u on deaths doorstep.

Anyhows i got through it okay,with the help of Zai ofcos poking and pushing my head knowing im unable to defend myself,another thoughful thing i wont forget is when she got up in the morning and said "hey bitch are you okay",such love what more could i ask for.

Alas im back at work,almost all better and catching up on exam stuff to be sorted out.

On the relationship front :Defining a relationship

Okay so after lots of discussions amongst individuals,we trying to figure out how to define a relationship that that doesnt have a name.This is a day and age where not many young adults ask each other out its just a natural understanding that we are a couple and theres no need to say 'would you go out with me' ,its just an 'Understanding' between the two concerned.

You get:

Jolling -where you are kissing friends and you allowed to have others.

Friends with benefits -Where you are friends but undercover benefits are happening.

Bf/Gf -basically going out ,almost married type of situation.

So what do u call a commited relationship,where the understanding is mutual and consent for certain things are needed?

Everybody seems to be sitting on these types of relationship,undefined,i think it just gives space for trouble to let itself in and lots of hearts to be broken.

A week in my life!

This Week has gone by really fast,well its because ive been busy with students and exam queries,lets hope everything goes smoothly.At least somethings in life can be controlled and other things you just have to sit back and let destiny run its course,whatever is meant to happen will.

Lets see the weekend brought lots of highs and lows but i was mostly high ,lol in high spirits trying to live in the moment.Panama friday night was awesome,after long i partied all out "Roger Goode VS Martin McHale",all good grace goes to Martin ofcos,untouchable yet again.

Anyways before that experience everyone else went to chek out Lady Lea but i was watching "Pirates"yes Pirates of the Cari-Be-an 3 as some would say.First time i watched the whole film and i had to so i was forced to enjoy it.I dont actually remember watching one,but POC 2 i remember..... me ,zai n noori went with the boys to watch it,then an hour into the movie we fell asleep,then I yes I came up with the idea of running away,yes we all dont have cars but we were ditching the guys,so the 3 musketeers ran around gateway 11.30 pm in the night looking for a lift to town,this being saturday night ofcourse.



Anyways we phoned Mr F our superhot friend(hehe) and he picked us up and took us to 3s for an awesome night that we can't really recall.Oh! wait i can recall now,we didnt go home we went to Kranskop for the first time ,yes with Ridwaan n Otta ,saw the farm for the first time,smelt fresh air and well saw the farm life upclose and personal.Okay i could go on but i rather not,ill keep that little roadtrip in my head.






Kranskop





















I wish i could stop time or maybe fast forward just a little,so i don't have to live in certain moments,but if i dont go through those moments i won't learn from them and it only adds character to me or my life.I guess it teaches me a lesson,but whether i chose to learn from the lesson is really the question.Is it too late to ask for some direction?.I suck big time at writing but nevertheless i write,i think i need to put a pre-warning on the top of my blog.



SUX AT WRITING BEWARE OF CONTENT WITHOUT GRAMMER,VOCAB AND ANY USEFUL THOUGHTS.

100 things

Okay im starting 100 things post dont know when i'l finish.Here goes.



1.Im addicted to xhot nando's.

2.Im a moody bitch at times.

3.I love my job(personal Assistant) which entails bossing,bitching and administration.

4.Im not one for animals,they bite and make me itchy

5.I have a learners and no drivers license which is a disgrace on my behalf.

6.Im daily slacker(procrastinator)

7.Im a social butterfly,im everywhere and i know almost everyone(sux that).

8.I love taking pictures and photography.

9.I live each moment and day as it comes.

10.Iv'e always got a smile on my face.

11.I laugh alot and out aloud(family trait).

12.Im a girl at heart.

13.Im sentimental,im sucker for little sweet things and gestures.

14.Im pretty cute (most definetly) so im told.

15.I have a sense of humour.

16.Im a pink queen.( the fushia pink)

17.I like things my way and i like to do it myself so it gets done.

18.I hardly get angry.

19.I don't voice my objections, when i get angry i keep quiet.

20.I have too many friends,but they're special in their own way.

21.I like to look at the good in people not the bad.

22.Im not a morning person.

22.I hate liars.

23.I hate nagging,and i dont nag.

24.I love to cook.

25.But hate to clean.

26.Im blessed with good guys that are always in my life.

27.I don't like people with no moral standards and no respect for themselves.( but i dont judge people)

28.I dont like people telling me what to do.

29.I despise people who always talk about me.

30.I haven't fallen in love or had a broken heart.

31.Im guilty of breaking hearts.

32.I forgive but dont forget.

33.Im lazy .

34.i am muslim

35.My parents are of different races.

36.I am shy at times(yes believe it)

37.Im pertified of cochroaches.

38.Afraid of heights.
39.Recovering shopholic.

40.Addicted to movies.

41.Dislike reading(contibution to my lack in vocab and grammer)

42. I have a 3yr diploma in Info technology.

43.I live with my parents.

44.I have one younger brother.

45.I can get my degree in counselling and psychology.(expert on everything)

46.that contributes to me being a good listener

47.and less of a talker.

48.Im spontaneous.

50.I live life on the edge(sorta)

51.Im a virgin (waiting till i turn 50)

52.I come across as uncaring and cold(to some people but im not)

53.Im stubborn.

54.I have a thing for quiet, sweet guys with a bit of spunk in them.

55.Im unable to express myself an feelings most of the times.

56.Im a clown most of the time at work.

57.Im streetwise( gangster in short).

58.I can handle stress and pressure.

60.I cry for movies that are sad 99% of the time.

61.I dont like to plan,because God is the one that plans for you.

62.Dont know when ill grow up.

63.I love to dance and sing anywhere anytime.

64.I dont like talking on the telephone but i can mxit all day( broken fingers here i come).

65.I love house music and well any good music.

66.Im reckless and careless at times.

67.Im a typical LEO

68.2015 so many years later updating this..

69.Married already 4 years and counting

70.Im into purple now no longer pink girl

71.been in Love since 2007 with my husband

73.my best friends are always guys

74.I  love shiny clothes and jewellery

75.Im a bag addict* i get bored easily* totally expensive Addiction

76.Had my first appartment/Flat with 3 bedrooms

77.My curly hair even when straight irritates me *always tie it up*

78.Im super spoilt by my husband and i know its wrong

79.I love eating out and trying new food

80.

Needs

As we grow up ,go through life experiences ,go through family problems,go through make ups and break ups and break ups.We sit back and assess our current relationships or our future prospects and decide what do we need.

We now have the knowledge ,the experience all gathered up in our head.We not young ,stupid ,naive and gullibe anymore ,we can say now this is what i want and im not settling for less,i can stand on my own two feet now,so u can't use or abuse or make me like or love you,im my own person.

Im talking relationship wise now,choosing who u wish to go out with,marry ,divorce or just spend qaulity best friend time with.Lots of us are going through this,is he/she what i need,can he or she give me what i want.

Everyone wants different things,some want unconditional love,some want to be taken care of,some want freedom,some need trust,some want all the good things in life,others want normality and happiness or plain down attraction.We each choose whats the most important thing to us.

Okay so u have these wants from the other person,but you too have to give something back -You have to sacrifice ,understand ,compromise you cant have everything you want your way always.Give and thou shall receive.

Making yourself happy is the most important thing,It sounds selfish,but u have to be,because everyone no matter what they do is to benefit themselves,you can argue that point but if u think about it the end result is selfinvolved and self absorbed.If u gave it a try and it didnt work out,fine stop trying pack your bags and move on.

Take the time to sit back and think before you throw away something you can never get back.This post is aimed at all my friends,in their own way each of them are going through assessing their relationships,the make and break part of it.

REALITY CHECK PEOPLE THE TIME IS NOW!!!!

From Dusk till Dawn

First off to start my saturday night was a rush to watch spiderman3 at supernova,I thought it would be boring so i set myself up for along monotonous 2 n half hours.But to my delight there was the cutest chubbiest little 5 year old boy with hanging cheeks and big gorgeous eyes sitting next to me,he just made me smile and laugh from the begining to the end,I really enjoyed the movie ,the frames moved very fast but it kept my attention and the storyline wasnt bad at all.

Then mr sparky bought me chinese rice which is like the next best thing to nandos,we both agree,we had a little fight over him eating my rice but il get over it,He said i look like a child getting a present not willing to share it.

Everyone else was at the rugby stadium parking lot ,didnt look like they wanted to leave there after the sharks won ,so we dropped in to see what was hapening,Jonathan was running around with he's sharks flag 'skirt' and the others were playing frisby,and ofcos ogling at some new 'hot eye candy additions'.

Then from going to leave my jacket in the car,it moved to us off to check out a house party on the north coast,which then moved to us driving to Ballito for no apparant reason in the world but just for fun and this 11 pm in the night,ya thats madness.Another part of madness that went along with that is me driving back from Ballito,a road i know nothing about and adding to fact i haven't driven in a year.

Going back to Absa stadium,the wild little animals(my lovable friends) were still there,the crew got bigger,the music got more funkier,the night just went on and on and drama just kept on boiling and brewing.

Who needs 'Days of our lives' when we have our own little live reality show that keeps kicking strong every weekend.But we are stronger than all that,We have love amongst us unlike no other crew and that is the honest truth.

Absa staduim :

hot girl: "would you top staring at my tits"
Drunk white guy:"I cant help it they're nice"

I couldnt help myself i burst out laughing.

Grey Street Memories

Wednesday night we attended Grey Street Literary Trail at Suncoast supernova.Each told a little story of how they experienced life back in the day,how they led movements in the apartheid era and how safe life life was walking around town in the middle of the night,i guess all of our parents tell us those stories,i know mine do since they both lived in streets running parallel to grey street.

I lived in town almost half my life,i am now as the say from "The towns".

I remember Grey street in its own way...

It started when i was 9 years old and i attended Juma Musjid primary school,i played softball on the roof garden of grey street mosque and hit the ball over too many times.I remember friday Juma time going to read namaaz we had to pass through the arcade,buying pies and chips and running through little shops to browse article of no interest.I remember the walk down grey street to my granny's house passing patels to sit with my little brother and our other friends to have a beans bunny.

My high school life also took me up and down grey street,this time it was from the other end up girls high to the library and back.Everyday after school we,d stop at the corner shop beatrice and grey and have our 3.50 bunny's ,then off to the library not forgetting to stop at kulfi to stand and make noise and buy a milk lollies.
I remember ramadaan time going to read taraweeh at grey street mosque,then waiting afterwards for my dad to pick us up or running away with my cousins for a drive on the beach.

Each corner of grey street has memories,thats where i spent most of my youth not that im old...Ahem,but now i stay indoors because it aint safe nemore,me n zai just go to carson's corner to buy bread some days,it usually takes us half and hour to walk up lorne street and around the block.SOme people dont know what's it like to stay in town,i love it,it has it's up's and down's but we used to it and it gives a person character,attitude and makes them street wise.

Lets hope the memories dont fade along with the name.

Jojo - Anything lyrics

(It's gonna take a lot to drag me away from you
There's nothing that a hundred men or more could ever do)

Yo I don't know
What you do when you do what you do boy

But baby baby baby baby
I don't even care no more You've got me so
Caught up in ya spell, it's voodoo boy
Well baby baby baby babe I wanna be there for sure

Cause every time that we rendezvous
I don't wanna go back home
And every time that I'm holding you

There ain't no way to let you go
You're shining down boy the game is through
I don't wanna play no more
Cause the only one that I want is you

So tell me what you wanna do because baby
Cause I just can't stay away

There's nothing that I can do
And baby you can have your way
Just as long as I can have you

And I'd do anything baby, do anything for ya,
And I'd do anything baby, do anything for ya

We are for sure persistant in what we want,even though sometimes we know its wrong and we cant always have what we want and its not good for us,but we still insist on burning ourselves,im sorry but my excuse is im confused,forever confused im worst than the weather.Heard this song on 5fm yesterday,and i loved it.

Week has been a bit sad,friends are having problems 'ok when are they not',my aunt is sick so my parents had to go to jhb this morning,My boss has been in hospital and will hopefully be back next week.A colleage passed away after getting shot on the weekend,we live in an evil freaken world ,but dont we know that.

Campus is dead because of holidays,not a soul around but i aint complaining.